December 17 – Lesson Learned (#reverb10)

December 17 – Lesson Learned. What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward? (Author: Tara Weaver)

Back in July, I felt a sincere desire to make some changes, but I lacked any motivation at that time to take the necessary steps to move forward. I questioned my readiness to  do what needed to be done.

As others came out of the woodwork with similar issues, we formed this amazing group that have bonded on this journey we’re taking together. Through the beginning, I maintained almost constant doubts about myself even as week after week things went well. I was doing it, even as I felt unmotivated, uninspired and inadequate. I not even sure where all of these feelings came from; they were just there. 

When everything went ass over tea kettle, my doubts came rushing back and now they’re holding me hostage - even six weeks later! This week I’ve been trying to conquer this mental block. I want to say again, “ready or not, here I go!” And then I want to see success again.

I know I can. I already proved it to myself once, but I keep forgetting that lesson.

I need to do burn it on my brain somehow so that I don’t forget.

Today is a new day, a new week, so ready or not, here I go!!