Day 15 - Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

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I’m starting to regret the impulsive decision I made two years ago to do this list. Questions like this one irk me because, apart from the necessities of life, there is nothing and no one I can’t live without. 

There are, however, people I wouldn’t want to live without. Matt is one of them. And yes, I have tried to live without him. I survived, but it wasn’t fun. I’m glad I have him. 

I knew for most of my adult life that I would likely lose my mother early, but losing her at 28 was a shock. It would be too soon at 40 or 50, too. I’ve survived without her and I’ve chosen to find joy in what I have rather than focus on what I’m missing out on. 

I’m not even going to think about the possibility of living without Brandon. 

Life just doesn’t give us the option to choose the path we want. Feeling sorry for not having things a certain way accomplishes nothing. I’ve grieved my losses and I won’t ever forget. I can’t move on and experience the fullness of life if I’m caught up in the past.